the Haunting Memory

I see myself growing up from 16 years old to 17 years old and then to 18 years old….How things have changed.

As i read my past entries there
Many many thoughts crowded my head
“You mean, that was what happened??”
“Oh my gawd….”
“Why did it happen that way???”
They were all clearly written there.
I could actually feel my past feelings
View all that has happened
Like a film, running in my head
The anger,the boiling rage, my insecurities, my sadness, my worries..
Oh man, the list of negativity could go on!!!
And of course, now and then, there were the happy memories
I repeat, now and then only.
I couldn’t control my tears when I read some of the entries
“Couldn’t believe that it happened…”
Right now,I can’t believe I’m standing here now
Having survived every battle life has thrown to me
Leaving my life to fate,
A dangerous game of expectations and unexpectations our lives are playing
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I sound like I’m possessed.
Don’t I?