In loving memory of Norazirah..Feb’ 1983- Oct’ 2008

We all have fears. I’m scared of the dark, I’m freaked out by lizards and I’m afraid to go into patient’s rooms during night shifts. And of course many, many more.

But the one fear that terrifies me the most is the fear of losing someone I love and know.. to the extent of losing someone completely out of the face of this earth.
Death.
Something that will never fail to make me shudder at the thought of it.
I’m sure many people has the same fear as I do. Its a kind of phobia that stays in your head and doesn’t leave your mind at all.

I ever had dreams, or rather, nightmares of losing the people around me and I would wake up crying silently.
That is the greatest fear I had since I was 7yrs old,when I lost my grandfather and I know nothing can overcome it. Because I believe the people who has been a part of me in life are the most important to me and I can’t imagine a life without them.
Today I received messages from my friends about Nora,an ex-colleague in Mac-donalds back in 2002-2003, that she was involved in an accident and passed away. A friend read it in the newspapers about the accident, that her husband and her were hit by a drunk driver. Her husband survived the accident. It was a shocking news to us all. Its frightening, how a life can be taken away just like that…

I remember Nora as someone who’s bubbly and cheerful girl and we used to crap a lot at work. She also gives really good advices and she’s easy-going. She just got married with her best friend on X’mas eve 2006. I did not attend her wedding as I was having a family chalet back then.

Dear Nora, I pray you’re resting in the peaceful tranquil heavens with God who will hold you safely and lovingly. I pray for your husband and family members to be strong and to overcome this ordeal.
You’ll always be in our memories..

I fantasize waaaaayyy tooo much! Help!

I can’t wait for the movie to come out!
DECEMBER 18TH!!!
After reading the book Twilight gives me all sorts of ideas and unrealistic expectations in men!
I SOOO want a boyfriend like Edward Cullen!!!
I want to date a vampire who is cold and icy on the outside, but warm and sweet on the inside!

Where are you?

Dear God..

All these while…

Giving me the signs
Whenever I asked for one(or a few… or more.. hehe)
You have given me strength to face my challenges
And to never give up hope
I know you have been listening to my prayers
And I believe its you, guiding me and supporting me
Thank you Dear God and I love you!

its all in the mind.

I feel like I have been disconnected from this world!
I have this feeling,  the-no-one-shall-know-of-my-whereabouts-muahaha-disconnected kinda feeling. LoL. Not that I wanna disappear and all, its just I’ve been really busy lately!

And I keep getting fatigue-attacks! I can feel SUPER EXTREMELY tired.
Gosh, are these signs of premature aging? And i’d have crazy mood swings as well!
AaaAahhhhh~
I’ve been wanting to update my blog for the longest time ever!
Unfortunately, time is the main constraint.

Anyways, i have been busy with my family, preparing for the coming festival of Lights *bLing bLing.

Would someone get me an eye cream for my eyebags?? I look like shite.

Oh, i’m in love with Edward Cullen. I mean.Seriously.in.love.with.him.

Who wouldn’t??

Droolss* Where can you find a hot vampire?
Twilight (:

I feel like i’m 17 again~ *FlOats~~~
*tEEhEee~

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming "I love you so... But my thoughts you can't decode)

-Paramore, Decode