Decision

Ok I have decided. I’m definitely doing it.
I must and I will.

Well, there’s bound to be pain, which is the least of my worries. The hardest part would be to go through the long and hard thinking process on deciding on the design i want and the location to do it. Gotta be artistic and original, plus something to call my own! I’d probably take a few months or a year to decide as it’d be etched for life-long.

I’m very sure its worth it. =)
And its a decision I won’t regret.

A sweet clip from the show, LA INK

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUI7Iaw2T6U

I almost cried when I watched this! Its meaningful and its an amazing masterpiece… like an painting on the wall.

Beautiful.

Gold dust*

How young and naive one could be
To believe in the world of make believe
Real fantasies flash, when your eyelids shut
Deceiving you along the planes of reality

It pulls you in, it grips you tight
Sends you plunging into an endless space
You feel feather-light, flowing.. spinning
Bright colours carrying you in the unknown structure

Stardust, they burst in your palms
Being exposed to oxygen, so poisonous
The lives ripped apart, never living again
In her dreams, they shall stay
Bounded by silver threads and misty skies.
-written by ME~ lol

I love this song by Pink – Ave Mary A
Ave Mary A
Where did you go
Where did you go
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad
Help me let go
Of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me

Child be still
Child be still

\m/(>.<)\m/ Rock 2oo9!

How did we get here? When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here? Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it’s hanging on your tongue…Just boiling in my blood! But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are? If you’re a man at all…
Well, I will figure this one out!!
On my own…..
(I’m screaming, “I love you so!!!”)
On my own….
(My thoughts you can’t decode)

How did we get here? When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here? Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools … Of ourselves.
Do you see what we’ve done??? We’ve gone and made such fools….
Of ourselves.

-Paramore Decode.

I SO LOVE THE SONG!

On the 1st Day of 2009..

Chasing fireworks at 2358hrs on the 31st December 2008
To catch the bright lights spreading out the dark night skies
The amazing view behind the lush greenery of trees and tall buildings
With everyone watching and exchanging wishes of a wonderful new year
A New Day at midnight has began.

HAPPY Two Oh Oh Nine
have an OOoOohtique new year! *heeheee

My “need to do and MUST achieve in 2009″ list

-Go Cable Ski-ing in Batam

-Get a Scuba Diving license

- See angel reader audrey.

-Pass all my exams and get through all my semesters for my degree in nursing.

-Get a pair of black chuck taylors sneakers.

-Get a photo shoot done with my girlfriends for my 22nd Burfday in long flowy gowns/dresses wearing sneakers. (:
Any good photographers to recommend ?

-A get-away trip Perhentian Island in May with tsy,vmj,lpn and dabibooon http://www.perhentian.com.my/

-Ensure that I’m out traveling during in my December Annual Leave slot!

And I’m willing to try anything that comes, fun and even downright crazy!
We only live once to try everything!
I’m glad that I watched YES MAN on the eve on New years day.
Its an inspiring and motivational movie that’ll give you the drive to try absolutely ANYTHING and to not be afraid to take chances!
Better tried than never yea?

Before I end this lil’ entry, I wanna wish and pray for my family and friends and everyone good health, loadsa tickling happiness, love and success in everything they do!

*♥ Sumi

Tyra Banks Show

WhoA oHhh

She looks surprised!
I wish I was in her place now. *snickers

He’s so cute! Well both guys are.

Drowning in a Dilemma

I sense you’re bleeding internally
Its like a huge blow of force
Just whipped out all the life in you
That life doesn’t hold a meaning to you anymore
The hurt.. the loss of…
I could see it in your eyes
Even if im not around to listen everyday,
or be a shoulder for you to cry on..
I know how you’re feeling..
I guess its a matter of making the right choice.
Stuck in a dilemma. Making that decision.
Or just floating unknowingly, letting the waves bring you whereever.
Thinking whether or not, waiting or turning back to what it was before,
…Would be a better choice.. or not.

I just hope whatever choice you make will be what you really want
So that you would be full of light and hope again
Let your mind be free

i’m praying for ya dear =)

If only everything was pure, full of innocence and bliss………

PS: I hope the reader would know that this post is dedicated to them

Zero

My thoughts are lost into the air
Sometimes I don’t know what I’m living for
In me, the emotions I feel are just so weird
These weird delusions, running through my head
They can’t stop now, they gotta keep going
For if they stop my mind would be empty
Its unintended, its unexpected
I just wanna get out of this place,
This tainted place my mind has created
So unknown and….

Blank.

Save me.

In loving memory of Norazirah..Feb’ 1983- Oct’ 2008

We all have fears. I’m scared of the dark, I’m freaked out by lizards and I’m afraid to go into patient’s rooms during night shifts. And of course many, many more.

But the one fear that terrifies me the most is the fear of losing someone I love and know.. to the extent of losing someone completely out of the face of this earth.
Death.
Something that will never fail to make me shudder at the thought of it.
I’m sure many people has the same fear as I do. Its a kind of phobia that stays in your head and doesn’t leave your mind at all.

I ever had dreams, or rather, nightmares of losing the people around me and I would wake up crying silently.
That is the greatest fear I had since I was 7yrs old,when I lost my grandfather and I know nothing can overcome it. Because I believe the people who has been a part of me in life are the most important to me and I can’t imagine a life without them.
Today I received messages from my friends about Nora,an ex-colleague in Mac-donalds back in 2002-2003, that she was involved in an accident and passed away. A friend read it in the newspapers about the accident, that her husband and her were hit by a drunk driver. Her husband survived the accident. It was a shocking news to us all. Its frightening, how a life can be taken away just like that…

I remember Nora as someone who’s bubbly and cheerful girl and we used to crap a lot at work. She also gives really good advices and she’s easy-going. She just got married with her best friend on X’mas eve 2006. I did not attend her wedding as I was having a family chalet back then.

Dear Nora, I pray you’re resting in the peaceful tranquil heavens with God who will hold you safely and lovingly. I pray for your husband and family members to be strong and to overcome this ordeal.
You’ll always be in our memories..

I fantasize waaaaayyy tooo much! Help!

I can’t wait for the movie to come out!
DECEMBER 18TH!!!
After reading the book Twilight gives me all sorts of ideas and unrealistic expectations in men!
I SOOO want a boyfriend like Edward Cullen!!!
I want to date a vampire who is cold and icy on the outside, but warm and sweet on the inside!

Where are you?